My chaps

My monkeys. I don't know if I am the only one on Earth that has very few regrets but having my three children is definatley not one of them. Chiane Brielle. To date, she is 10 years of age. In twenty days, my big girl will have her 11th birthday. Time flies and I have tried to cherish EVERY single moment. I knew parenting would be hard and I am up for the challenge. See, I planned ALL three of my monkeys. It may be hard to believe but I did. Chance and I were college sweethearts. He loves me wholeheartedly. We have been through a whirlwind. I know there is more downs to come but we will weather the storm. Whatever the plan. So when we were 20, he asked me to have his baby. My strong will was weakened by love. I said yea. Without knowing what the future held. I said yea. I know it seems crazy but I was that deeply in love. Still in college, no degree, no job, college stuggling. Out of that, we conceived our genius girl child. I prayed throughout the hard times of me feeling neglected of Chance's immaturity of college partying and playing video games that Chiane would look like me. And she is my twin. I love her (all of my children). But we are BUMPING HEADS! We planned that because Chiane was SO SPOILED that she needed someone to play with. See, that prayer came with Chiane being stuck by my side all the time. We planned Courts after we got married (go figure). So Courts is very outgoing. I didn't do any of the things I did with Chiane as a first time parent. But I did successful breast feed for more months and let her wander off a little more. Well, we had tragedy happened. We lost Daddy Chance and I thought we should have another male to help carry on the Nesbitt name. Chance was against it. We were turbelent during this time but in the end, we were blessed with Chance Jr. So we are happy with three monkeys. All three I love WITH EVERY inch of me!! We are blessed in so many ways and we are continuing to strive to be better parents and better people. I pray my little children grow up to be successful citizens and servants of the Lord. We are a work in progress. It's a hard life but I am thankful for it is FAIR!! Well that's my rant for the night! Until next time. Peace and Blessings!

today, CJ and I took a run for the potty today. basically, i put him on his underwear. Tragic. He was doing great and then he went on by himself on the stairs as if he was going downstairs. I was in his room; getting rid of old clothes and I went looking for him. My crazy ass did not notice that he was naked from the waist down. I went in the laundry room and still didn't notice. He was like, mommy, my clothes...Naked. little dude is killing me LOL. That's my son though. He is a BALL of electricity. This little joker has been waking up in the middle of the night for the past two nights screaming. SMH. on another note: Chance found a house in Arkansas. It was a really nice one. He is going look at a few more on tomorrow. So maybe by the MLK holiday, we will be out of Missouri...maybe. LOL. Me and my feelings. I am just rolling with the punches. If I put too much thought into it, I might talk myself out of life. Not literally but..... >>>Peace and Blessings<<< Until next time.

It's been a while.A long ass time

I can't remember my last post. But since the last one, I have had so many changes in my life. My grandmother passed away last November. My mother got married to somebody and now she is with someone else *that's a mess. My father and his wife...well let's just say, we are estanged and I am fine with it that way. I got a job with the state. Liked the people, didn't like the work. I found another job...I really enjoyed it. And now we are moving..AGAIN. This time closer to Memphis. I was just getting the hang of Missouri. Not the Missouri winters, but Missouri LOL. Chance is in Russellville, Arkansas. Yea, I know you are thinking, really, where the hell is that. I am still the same way. But I am starting to think everything happens for a reason. In 2012, I have been through a lot. A whole lot. But life is hard but it's fair. I have three beautifyl children. They are all EXTREMELY gifted. I am so proud to be their mother. Too happy in fact. I could wish for better children. They are all smart, mannerable (still working on that) and just the best! There is NOT A THING that I wouldn't do to make sure they are happy. They didn't ask to be on the earth, I prayed for them. All three of them. With all that being said, I will try to do better in 2013 by journaling my thoughts :) Oh yea, today is my birthday. Laters gaters!!

Well. It has been a minute since I have blogged and I will work on that. Next week, Chance and I are going to start veggie and fruit juicing. I am inspried by my line sister, LaDeia McNeal. I have always wanted to detox this way. So we are going to give it a shot. We are going to start on Tuesday, maybe Wednesday. That is when I am going to purchase the juicer.

Stay tuned!

The Girls and Basketball

My chicas are "BALLING"! My girls are playing basketball and they are loving it! They have the long of athletics honest because Chance and I both enjoy sports. He played basecall, basketball and football. I ran track but played basketball recreationally. The fact that they like sports makes their daddy light up. I love to see that they are improving at every game! My chicas are growing up so fast :(

Courtney's basketball coach quit. Coach "Grand-dad" as he likes to be called took all of the fun out of the game for the six year old. They were so afraid. He tried to run plays and set picks. Just too much. The last straw was his mouth. Practice is only an hour. In this hour, you can get but so much done. This guy wanted to talk and talk. Chance took the girls and CJ to practice. He texted me 30 minutes into practice and stated that the Coach was still talking. Now, mind you these girls are 6. How long do you think they really listened to him? I think they got the Charlie Brown's teacher Wha wha wha wha after the first eight minutes.

Needless to say, two parents have stepped up. One of the parents being the former Coach Nesbitt. LOL. The girls had fun but they LOVE to win. Updates to come on the season.

32 never looked THIS good

 

This is one of the luxuries of having great genes.  I don’t want to brag but I don’t feel my age.  Neither do I look it!!  This is the first year that I celebrated my birthday away from my hometown, Memphis.  I received an overwhelming amount of well wishes.  I received a great gift from my hubby.  He got me this fabulous Inspiron Duo tablet.  My cousin sent me a great contract and gift card (thanks Shina Bina) and my sister in law sent me some DKNY apple perfume (smells absolutely wonderful) and a gift card to my favorite store, OLD NAVY.  Two of my neighbors took me out on the town and the day after I got a sinus infection!  YAY ME!  The bittersweet thing about this birthday is I didn’t have my grandma calling to sing her terrible Happy Birthday song. She was so funny.  But she lives in me. She really does.  I replay conversations all the time in my head.  I also have conversations in my head when I think about picking up the phone and calling her.  She had some advice.  Most of the advice is still useful and some was off the wall.  At the end of the day, my Grandma was the BEST.

32 years old.  WOW.  The best is yet to come and if you know me, I will change with the wind (my appearance, not my personality).

January 1, 2012...So far

Well, today was a lazy (not really) day for me. I am not feeling this Missouri thing. Maybe it's me (it is) but I am not adjusting well. I do not miss Memphis (I miss my friends and family) but right now, I am not feeling this. Usually when I need a release, I can go somewhere. Chance (tries to) take the children (which doesn't last long) outside (supposedly) to give me a break. But because I have turned my hobby into a business, I do not know what a break is. You know when you are a mother, you want your children to go and spend time 'away' from home to give them a chance to miss them...I have not had that in a LONG time. I have literally been on locked down since November 18, 2010.

November 18, 2010 is when I was placed on bedrest with CJ. This is hard for people to see and understand. In due time, things will get better. I GUARANTEE THAT!


Until next Sunday...
Peace and Blessinigs

Merry New Year 2012::Toast to Me

Okay, let's recap. My immediate family moved to Missouri in May 2011. This was my first time being away from my home. I was born and raised in Memphis, Tennessee. This is a huge adjustment for me. We have three children. The girls are adjusting well. There have been a few neighborhood bumps but nothing too painful. Chance Jr., on the other hand, is a busy body. He was a busy little bee in the womb and nothing has changed.
Me, well, I am over the house wife role. I do not think anyone feels me. But it is what it is. I lost my grandmother in November. Her health declined so rapidly. The Lord blessed me with the opportunity to tell her goodbye. Just typing this pains me so much. Christmas was so hard for me. I can never call MY birth mother and ask her what I need to use "instead of". If I did, she would say, "call moma and ask her".
Oh yea, speaking of that, Cynthia (my birth mother) got married AFTER my grandmother passed on. This gentleman, according to my mother, is someone she has always known. Ummmm. I have only been gone since May and before I left, she was dated this other gentleman named "Grasshopper". You know what sitting here blogging has given me A GREAT IDEA!!!Hmmm. Just know that my upbringing has got me to where I am today and I AM NOT A PRODUCT OF MY ENVIRONMENT! :)

MERRY NEW YEAR! I thank GOD for the blessings in the past and are grateful for the things to come!

New Year 2012

A lot has gone on since the last time I posted. I am making a resolution right now. At least once a week, I will post. I will post. I will post. I will post.

July 2011

Since moving to Missouri (the Zoo), we have met a lot of people. July 3rd. We had a block party with the people from the neighborhood. This was an interesting day. Chiane told me about the event but I am not the social butterfly (at first). I have to feel people out. Chiane insisted by getting one of the neighbors, Laura, to write me a letter detailing the event. So I obliged by stating that we will contribute baked beans and juice. The block party went well despite the "military bombs" created by the adult "children". My nice neighbors bought dry ice from the local supermarket and made their rendition of fireworks. They took pieces of dry ice and placed them in a water bottle. They then poured water into the bottle and placed the top back onto the bottle. As the scurried away, the nice bottle blows up and also placed a hole in the area. This was done throughout the night. The night before, Earl, one of the neighbors was excited to explain that every year, they make a rocket bottle peg board. He takes a 4X4 plank board with holes in it and fill the holes with bottle rockets. This dude lit the board with two matches and the bottle rockets flew EVERYWHERE! Other than these and other insane firework tactics, my neighbors are cool.
My girls LOVE the Delgados. Their family consists of three handsome boys and their parents, Laura and Greg. They moved about a month ago from Nevada. Greg work s the third shift like Nesbitt and Laura is looking for a teaching job at the moment. Their oldest is 7 and the youngest is 4. They are pretty cool to hang with but I don't know how she has the patience to be the hangout house (hats off to Laura). As the week goes on, I will try to blog often. My laptop died so I have to use Nesbitt's.

Slipping

Okay, I am going to try to post something once a week. I have slipping. I will catch up this Sunday. So I am making Sunday my post night.

My work

I am always picking up new projects. Here is the latest. I have other samples that I will post as soon as I perfect them.

SIDS

Sudden Infant Death Syndrome is the unexpected, sudden death of a child under age 1 in which an autopsy does not show an explainable cause of death.
SIDS is most likely to occur between 2 and 4 months of age, and 90% occur by 6 months of age. It occurs more often in winter months, with the peak in January. There is also a greater rate of SIDS among Native and African Americans.

The following have been linked to an increased risk of SIDS:

•Babies who sleep on their stomachs

•Babies who are around cigarette smoke while in the womb or after being born

•Babies who sleep in the same bed as their parents

•Babies who have soft bedding in the crib

•Multiple birth babies (being a twin, triplet, etc.)

•Premature babies

•Babies who have a brother or sister who had SIDS

•Mothers who smoke or use illegal drugs

•Teen mothers

•Short time period between pregnancies

•Late or no prenatal care

•Situations of poverty

SIDS affects boys more often than girls. While studies show that babies with the above risk factors are more likely to be affected, the impact or importance of each factor is not well-defined or understood.

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0002533/

I fear this. I have with my girls and now I am struggling with my son. I cannot sleep for checking on him throughout the night. Chance works the third shift so CJ sleeps with me. I know that this is a habit that will be hard to break but I would rather struggle. I love my children with every breath of my life and I would die if anything happened to them. Every night, I pray so hard for the safety and shield of protection of my children. I went through a hard trial with Chance Jr. when he was in the womb. God prepared me for the journey that I am on now. I am accepting that HE prepared me with bedrest and that everything will be ok.

Chance Jr.'s Motif Blanket

I need to be asleep but I am up blogging. I just finished crocheting a pair of earrings. When I was on bedrest with Chance Jr. All I had was time to crochet. I crocheted this blanket for his beginner crawler stage. I got this patten from Lion Brand. I chose the bright color in hopes of stimulating his learning abilities (at least that is what I am hoping it will do).

Outside Adventures (part two)

Okay. Chiane and Court was so happy about making friends and now, things have changed. Chiane is known as the "bug killer" because she has been claiming the lives of ants. Courtney is suffering because of the bug killing sister. They haven't been outside in two days because the neighborhood clan is not speaking to Chiane. She doesn't care though. She has found a new friend. Her name is J.J. Ms. Thang is a tomboy. Ms. Thang has influenced my girls to want skateboards. Let me say how much of an influence she is. Chiane came in wanting a skateboard. She told me they were on sale at Gordmans for $20.00 and handed me a coupon for 20%. She had it all together. Of course, if Chiane wants a skateboard, Courtney wants one also. So Tuesday, we went to Wal-mart, (only because the coupon wasn't effective until today, June 1) and purchased two skateboards, elbow, knee, and wrist pads. I wish they had a whole body armour they can skate in but I am praying for the whole armour of JESUS!! They suited up on Tuesday to play with their 'friends' when their friends ditched them. They not only ditched them Tuesday but today as well. I felt bad for them because they were truly looking forward to having new friends. But then Chiane told me that she didn't care about being their friend and her other friend, J.J. was visiting her dad. She is due back tomorrow. Let's see how this pans out.

So I married my best friend...

July 1999. That's when Chance and I first started what we called a "no strings attached" relationship. At this time, I lost my cousin to domestic violence. I didn't want a relationship. I liked to hang out and not feel the need for being 'caught up'. I remember writing in my Senior Book that I didn't want to get married nor have any children. I feel hard for Chance. We have a relationship like no other. We have grown so much together and he is my best friend.
Chance Bryant Nesbitt is a great guy. I shouldn't brag on our relationship because everything wasn't cookies and ice cream but we got over the hump. The hump was before the actual relationship. I love him with everything!! He tries so hard to be the perfect husband and father and this makes me try to be the perfect wife and mother. I know that we have a long way to go but I am glad that I am traveling with him. We made this move to Missouri together and so far, we are adjusting LOL.

The Outside Adventures

I don't remember much about hanging outside when I was growing up. I stayed in the house alot. I hated making new friends or just the drama of outside. Children are cruel...being picked on did NOTHING for my self-esteem. I was bullied until I was eleven, after that, I had to be the security guard for my siblings. I stayed in and read books such as Sweet Valley High, the Babysitters Club, Nancy Drew Mysteries, listen to music and wrote.

Yesterday, my girls made 'friends'. Four friends. Isabelle, Elizabeth, DJ, and Bobby. School is still in here because they have to make up snow days. Today, Chiane and Courtney waited anxiously until 4:30pm because their new 'friends' come home from school. These poor souls do not understand the wrath of "bossiness" between the Nesbitt chicks. Chiane is bossier. I feel sorry for these 'friends'.

Another thing I don't remember is being outside without some parental supervision. My grandma was always outside doing something...hanging out the clothes, sweeping the porch and driveway, cutting grass...something. These little chaps are outside riding up and down the subdivision and NO ONE is outside. This is a little new to me...
As I was sitting the window with CJ, I notice this guy talking to the group of friends. He talked for a long time, too long not to have any kids hanging outside. So I told Chance. He went to investigate. He found out that the guy works at some Wildlife place not too far from the neighborhood and wanted to educate the children on wildlife..hmmmm is all I am saying for now (stay tuned for that one).

I am glad they are outgoing like their dad. I was and still am (at times) a homebody. I am not quick to meet new people and definitely not quick to be friendly. I believe having my three chaps might help me to change that...we shall see.

Stay tuned...

New Adventures in a new city

I left my friends and birth family in my birth city of Memphis, Tennessee. My goal in life was to leave earlier before my college years. I am not saying anything about my mom's but close mindedness kept me in Memphis. When I talked about going to college, she said I couldn't go to a historic black college or University of Tennesssee at Martin. She based this of off the knowledge of others but she did not go to college. Being that she is the mother of eight children, I can imagine she did not have the time. Enough about her. My husband got a promotion and relocated us to Missouri. When he entered in the program, we knew there was a chance that he was going to relocate but it came sooner than we thought it would. February 12, 2011, I gave birth to my son, Chance Bryant Nesbitt, Jr. Everything on my career end was changing. I was about to start looking for something different but the relocation came rather quickly. NOW, I am a housewife. I have to make sure everything on the homefront is taking care of until I am comfortable with putting my new baby in someone else's care. This is the beginning of something I have to take ONE DAY at a time.

Lately, I have taught myself to crochet. Some of my peers may feel as though it's "granny like". If you know me...You know I can careless about anyone's opinion of me (most of the time). I love it. I have made monkeys, baby blankets, hats, scarfs, and socks. If you know of anyone that would like something made from yarn, let me know.

My Grandma

I have never been so afraid (that I can think of) in my life. Growing up, my family structure was the following: My maternal grandmother and grandfather, my moma, my aunt (who is two years younger) and my sisters and brothers (I am the oldest). We were taught about God but we never belonged to a church. I believe now that it may have been because it was so many of us. I learned to pray. I prayed for so many things. When I was younger, I prayed to be pretty. I pray for an escape. I just talked to the Lord all the time.
My upbringing was to negative. The things that were done in the house, I promised NEVER to do to my children. We went days and sometimes months without a phone. Days without lights. And struggled making food stretch to the end of the month. My grandma IS and always have been the rock. She was no angel, she was tough as nails. But she made a way for us to survive. If it wasn't for grandma, I don't think...well, I cannot say I she contributes to the entire success that I have accomplished in my life but I can say that she enstilled a strong will in me. She taought me, if a person won't do it for you, you have to get it yourself.
My grandfather was passive. He was also an alcoholic. Serious alcoholic. My granddad was disable I think he dranked to suffice alot of stress that were going on in his past. So my grandma was the head of the household.

Today, I got news that my grandma has a growth on her lung. For years, she didn't want to go to the doctor because she was afraid she was going to get diagnosed with cancer. I am faced with a horrifying truth. It maybe/LORD KNOWS I hope not. I am one of those types that feels you didn't pick your family but they are still your family. I love my grandma with all my heart and soul. I cannot bear to think about losing her. Not to cancer. I am claiming, in the name of Jesus, that this is something that can be easily treated.